yes yes yes there will always be homework im not doing but if everyone dropped everything and did their papers and assignments and chem labs on time then we would all miss out on all of life because the homework will never end. but life will.

1:30 am? why do i only come alive so late at night? its such a paradox to me that my energy levels are inverted when it comes to daylight. maybe i belong in alaska. one of the things i have always wanted to see is the aureora boralis. wanna know why? all the pictures i have ever seen of it look fake as hell. i cant believe anything i see through the media these days. what with photoshop and all. i can create anything i want to see with enough computer knowhow. why cant that skill translate into real life?

they should make pills that make you make good choices instead of liquids that make you make bad ones. im going to make it my top priority to invent that. just let me stumble through life a bit first.

i keep telling myself that one day it will get better. the "real world" will hit me all at once like coming out into the open night air after being trapped in a stuffy basement for 21 years. but honestly thats just a naive invention of todays society. were not safe here, were not hiding, were not sheltered in our little dorm rooms and fake cafeteria food. were festering. were rotting. were wasting our time in here, working hard for nothing and not having time to breathe.

what lets you breathe? what lets you see? what lets you be at ease? that should be what you spend your time on. not homework.

with that note....i have some assignments to finish.