ho hum

laundry in the dryer, nothing new or fascinating on facebook, no one in the house. what is there to do? i've been hesitating on doing the 15 people thing. i think its a great idea in theory, for other people, but i dont know if it will work out that well for me. i tend to say things too harshly and offend people without wanting to. i guess the only remedy would be to keep things brief and light hearted. all the angry stuff i say will be brief. well here goes nothing:

1) i really respect you but sometimes i think you are missing out on life. i worry about you. you do this tunnel vision thing where you focus on the bad part and fail to see the bigger picture. i wish you knew how lucky you are and how much i envy you, in a good way!

2) i wish you and i were closer friends. you're awesome and i wish i could be more like you.

3) i'm really glad that you and i got to be better friends this semester. you have the brutal honesty and the consistancy of character that i strive for. talking with you has really helped me out a lot and i wish you knew how much it meant to me. i have a sneaking suspicion that you will be too busy to talk to me in the spring but i have accepted that. i wish you were more comfortable telling me more about yourself.

4) i miss you like whoa. you are seriously the highlight of my day when i do get a chance to hang out with you. be around more!

5) you're awesome and i wish that you and i spent more time together. you seem so cute and innocent but you have this deceptive streak of sarcasm that lights up my life. im jealous that you're prettier than me sometimes. i promise we will have more bonding time this spring!

6) im worried about you. you have changed and i dont know if i am ok with it. i always tried to protect you but now i cant anymore and it kills me. you seem to be very mad at me whenever we hang out. did i do something? why do you hate me so much? i want to fix us.

7) i'm pretty much crazy about you. you are there for me when i need to rant and you take care of me when i'm too retarded to take care of myself. you and i have bonded so much over the last two years and i cherish that deeply. i wish you could feel complete without wanting a guy in your life. but i still want you to have one!

8) stop hurting my best friend. you piss me off.

9) i have a love hate thing with you. sometimes i talk smack about you but i have a great deal of admiration for you. trust me i would never say this to your face. sometimes i wonder "what if" but that is quickly squelshed by reality. your cool, and annoying, and nice, and nasty at times. and i like that. keep it up.

10) i like talking to you and im glad that were friends but at times you can be extremely arrogant.

11) sometimes you hate me, sometimes you can tolerate me. i cant stand how back and forth you are with me. i put up with it for years but i've lost patience for it. i miss the way you used to be, before the world got to you. go back inside your bubble where you were safe from the shitty world that you have to live in. i miss the old you.

12) i will never forgive you. ever.

13) i miss you the most. you seem to be the only one who gets me without even trying. you and i were always partners in crime and we have so many secrets that i treasure. my goal was to spend more time with you last semester and i sucked hardcore at it. i just wish that you and i didnt live in such polar opposite worlds. i want us to be the way we always were. i need you in my life and at my lowest and highest points, i think of you and realize it the most. i wish i could trust you enough to tell you everything.

14) i think i have you figured out. i hope i'm right...

15) you. ah, you... you're a coward. get over yourself.

hm that was a lot easier than it looks. if you think you see yourself in this list, take a guess at which one you are.