Tuesday, January 22, 2008

stolen from dan

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 40 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: For those who are guessing -- looking the lyrics up on a search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own.

1. Grew up in a small town, when the rain would fall down
2. Dear baby baby, won't you, I go crazy crazy for you
3. I don't know when it all began to simmer down, suddenly I don't want you around
4. When we met, life was set, thoughts free flow you said you got something deep inside of you.
5. Hand out the window, floating on air, just a flick of the wrist and I am waving you goodbye
6. Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret
7. oh, you are taking me back from where I've been
8. I came into this world as reject
9. Am I more than you bargained for yet?
10. Who do you think you are? barging in on me and my guitar?
11. Every morning theres a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriends four post bed.
12. Find me here, speak to me, I want to feel you, I need to hear you
13. I want you to remember, a love so full it could send us all ways
14. From an empty room in the first floor as the cars pass by the liquor store
15. I kissed a drunk girl
16. Avalanche she's sullen and too thin
17. Home is this quiet place where you should be alone
18. Where I come from isn't all that great, my automobile is a piece of crap
19. On my own, pretending he's beside me
20. Made the toast buy the eggs, never got the hang of them, just another other day
21. Broadway's dark tonight
22. While she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention
23. The Signal, is subtle, we pass just close enough to touch, no question, no answers, we know by now to say enough
24. They say in chess, you've got to kill the queen and then you've made it
25. This is the first day of my life, I swear I was born right in the doorway
26. I've heard it said, that people come into our lives for a reason
27. This song goes out to my good friends, especially to the ones I had before the Grammy nomination in 2003
28. I never said I'd lie and wait forever. If I did we'd be together.
29. How the hell did we wind up like this?
30. Yeah take it or leave it yeah, did you get what you needed?
31. Maybe this time, I'll be lucky. Maybe this time, he'll stay.
32. All aboard hit the road, all the bullshit cant be ignored
33. Days swiftly come and go, I'm dreaming of her, She's seeing other guys, emotions astir
34. Closing Time, open all the doors and let you out into the world.
35. Yesterday I went insane, oh my god, I forgot my name
36. Something is wrong with the sum of us that I can't seem to erase
37. The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight, this is the moment that I live for, I can smell the ocean air
38. God damn you half Japanese girls, you do it to me every time (HAHAHAHAHA i love that this song came on.... but i digress)
39. Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness, I need to calculate what creates my own madness
40. You build me up you knock me down, provoke a smile and make me frown

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

the year in review......woo hoo!

the whole 15 people debate? i fall on the apathetic side. they are fun to read, and serve an important cathartic purpose for the writer. i think that telling people how you feel is such an important part of being an adult. doing so anonymously is therapeutic and sometimes needed. i looked back at my last year's 15 ppl post, and i was pleased to say that most of what i wanted for those people in my life came true, occurred, or changed. how awesome is that? everything that i wished for in the people that were the closest to me actually happened. it isnt very often that we can say that about ourselves. its so encouraging to realize that i made the changes that i wanted to see in my relationships. rock on!

i didnt really expect to have such a great year. perhaps its my completely psychotic tendencies to see only the good and only the bad, but right now, i feel extremely good about the past year. i tend to go balls to the wall in everything i do, and also, make bad choices in general. as a result, i have put myself through some ridiculously painful experiences in my short life. looking back, i had a fantastic year, for me. i cant think of a single major regret. again, i find it important to reiterate how incredibly rare this is for me.

i think one of the reasons that i somehow managed to not make a monumental catastrophe out of my life was this stupid Menieres thing. as much as i ignore the whole "no alcohol or caffeine" rule, having this problem has really made me stop and consider the consequences of my actions more. as depressed as i was when i found out i had the condition, the constant reminder to look before i leap as definitely been a good thing for me.

there were so many highlights to this year......oh wow i cant even imagine listing them all.... i will say this though....growing up is getting kind of fun. :)

i really did sit down and think about what i would say in a 15 people post. to be honest, i have no deep, dark secrets from the past year. pretty much, if i felt something for someone, i told them, straight up. i cant think of anything that i need to anonymously get off my chest. that is such a liberating feeling, not having skeletons in the closet. i have definitely given up a lot of my angtsy emo mindset that pervaded my life since high school. i pretty much like where i am, where im going, and who im taking along on the ride with me. i feel so much more chill about life in general. i dont sweat the small stuff as much, and im definitely seeing the good in others a lot more. something that i noticed about myself this year, this past semester to be more specific, is that i hate people in general a lot less. the people who get on my nerves really arent that annoying. so either im getting more tolerant, or ppl in general are maturing around me. either way, this development is pretty much awesome. and unexpected as well!

such optimism is a rarity for me, so preserving it in a blog is really good. hopefully when i look at this a year from now, i wont disappoint myself.

heres to 2008! don't suck! ;)